Embrace

Shout out to the people who believe me.

Even if no one believes in me,

I know I believe in myself.

Maybe this is why I'm so hard on myself

Because despite how i grew up,an what i went through

Im Not letting that Hold me back.

When i accomplish things in my life

I embrace Myself.

I encourge Myself to do better.

When you know better you do better.

I hold HIGH expectations for Myself,

I set no limits for myself.

No one will hold me back,

I got a taste of Life an we love it.

Everyone has a choice,

you can not live your life unless you have control of it.

Control your life,dont let your life control you.

true to the Game, i aint new to this.

Im Justtrying to get right in a world full of wrong.

I'm TRYING to Change this Vicious Cycle.

Everything's the same, but it feels different

My Dreams are whom im Racing.

I hope My Success Never Alters our Relationship.

look into My eyes, Actually Look into My Soul.

My Mom called me up knowning That i still listen

An shes still got her foot out,Guilt trippin

Its been years though,i just learn to deal with it.

Ya,Thats it!!

I just Learned to deal with it.

sexy Mama

My Soul Yells through My Writing.

My hand Freely Writes.

Feeling good about your self is the first step,

It took me along time to accept my self an feel sexy

We MOTHERS,Struggle with this.

We carry are Beautiful children an Often forget

About us.

YES were important to.

I love doing My Makeup an Hair an Blasting the Music an Dancing.

I love feeling sexy!

An than I look down next to me,

an.....

boom!!!!

There's My Daughter Dancing Next to me!

How can I not feel beautiful ??

Roaming..

i was so weak than.. an you knew it

Starving Heart,Roaming Soul.

Getting lost in your OWN Life is Pretty Scary!

How do you find your self?

Wanna know whats more trippy...??

Getting lost in someone else's life.

Finding your self so deep in someones

Pain..

Hurt....

Sorrow...

Anger..

There are no doors to turn to..

How do you get out this place.

You are not the only one!!

Trust Your Struggle

 My Love, lord knows we have been through Many challenges in just a Year Time.

Happy,Scared,Sad,Nervous,Excited,Beyond Ready

In love,Breaking Points.

We faced all these obsticles in just over a Year time.

A year might not seem long to Many people,But a Year for us we have come along way lol.

I have NO WORDS for this Almost 1 Year for us.

EXCEPT

We Trusted our Struggled,We struggled together,an we Proved EveryBody Wrong.

I've learned to Trust in Myself in what seems like the Most Difficult times in my life.

I've learned in just this year that no one will have you like you got yourself even if no one gots us,I know we got Each other!

An there's no better feeling than knowing your going to make it no matter what.

Because Failure is No longer a Option.

Because today I am a Mother an Wife an My Limits will never stop.

No one will tell me how to run my life nor Family,if you aint paying My Bills Get out My Face.

Good things Happen to Good People.

Stop an Reevaluate your life.

Let that sink in . . . . . . . . . 

Ill continue to stay humble,Because I know everything that is happening in My life at this exact moment is Meant to be.

carl,Ugiene.

i always heard growing up no can break a brothers an sisters bond.

Boy did they lie..

My Dearest Brother, where did we loose eachother at?

How can we allow our selfs to fall apart an become weak.

Sometimes i sit an look at all the pictures of us growning up,

An i know our children will never share the bond we once had.

We always talked about how "Our Kids" would be the ones who changed this family.

How different of parents we would be!

How we would never ever give up on each other an how we only have eachother.

But how can we stop the rain,from falling?

What makes the world go round?

Sometimes things fall outta place so better things can happen.

Things Happen for a Reason.

i love you Bro, an Maybe One day Everything will be settled.

Till than we will continue to live our lifes.

embrace it All.

When I was pregnant with Gracie I Embraced every minute of it,
Even when I was pregnant an couldn't stand the smell of certain things or eat things I loved. Not every woman is Blessed enough to grow a Child inside of her.
An so when I hear Women complain about their pregnancy or bitch about everything it Urks me because how blessed are these women who are able to create an hold life inside of them for 9 months but they complain about it??

Now yes every situation Might be different but Life is life.
You embrace that life you created.

I love an embrace my child.

Humble

Maybe its just Watching the sun rise everyday or maybe its the smells of the flowers Blooming...

When I hear talkin', I just don't know what to make of it
Hate is so familiar to me, I'm slowly embracing it
Doesn't come natural, bear with me it could take a bit

my dreams are who I'm racing with
You can see I'm pacin' it so that I'm always chasin' it
I hope that my success never alters our relationship








I try an to stay Very Very Humble in All situations, see I'm trying to be a BETTER person.

Hold up,Hold Up . . . . I didn't say I was perfect.

I want something I'm going to make it Happen.

There's no Reason to be jealous of someone just because they are working hard for what they want or they are blessed with Opportunities. This is one thing I can't stand!!
Like why can't people just be HAPPY that someone is moving up in life.

They look at me a certain way now,because I'm doing better than they could have ever been I'm far from perfect just like everyone I know.

black sheep Bahhhh.

Growing up I just wanted someone to acknowledge all the "GOOD" I do.
I strive for the best everyday, I strive to be a Better Mother,a Better wife.


I have feelings to!

I like to refer Myself as a Black sheep of the Family.
I've always been treated a little different...... Did I say a Little...
I meant a lot.

I held a lot of Bitterness, Confusion, Maybe Anger,a Hint of Jealousy.
We have what you call the "Golden Child" in our family an one of those Golden child was My Oldest brother,No Matter how much wrong he did He was NEVER wrong.

As a young child I never understood,

What's wrong with me?
Why am I being treated differently?

Its just a cycle in our family.

Once I got Married I decided that I was just going to let it all go,
I'm turning 21 I'm not going to let the past take over me, man I've never felt so damb weak,
Once I realized I literally let this take over me.

I have to be able to control My life, not let my life control me.
I'm no longer in competition with someone who's suppose to be My Sibling.
I will not fight for someone to love or care about me,I figure I don't need someone to tell Me there proud of me when I'm proud of my self!
I'm proud of where I am at today!
I am proud that I am young an Independent, I work everyday for what I want in life.
I work hard to stay independent, I refuse to Fail an when you come to a point in your life when your tired of being the same you will change

Even if no one Acknowledges All My Good,I'm still Good.

a Letter To Mom.

So almost 5 paragraphs got deleted but you know what maybe it was for the best.
Let's start over......









Mom,I hope someday you are Proud of me.
I hope one day I make you proud to say "That's My Daughter"
Mom Despite everything we've been through,I don't hold anything against you.
I understand that no one is perfect,I understand that being left with 2 kids wasn't easy.
I remember the good days an I live off those,I wish I can take the pain away,its a struggle everyday for me to not have the Relationship I want with you.
I remember when I was younger we would write letters to each other an read them.
Writing took all my feelings an emotions away.

Mom I have Faith that one day,you will be strong an dig deep an Find an Repair your Heart because in Reality only you can.
I love you so much an you mean the world to me,one day I will buy you a Big comfy house,a Nice Car. An give you the world.
I promise to always work hard an Never give up on myself.
I promise to always be the best mother an always improve on Motherhood.

Growing up with a parent who has a Addiction is Never Easy,it truly sucks that this happens everyday. I could never ever till this day uunderstand how women an men can choose drugs over there child? How can you look you child in the eyes an continue to ruin your child's life.

I have always told my self to not be weak,to always stay focused on My Daughter create a bond that not even drugs can Break. Nothing nor no one can ever over come our Relationship, my daughter will forever come first because she's My Life. I control My life,My life Does not control me.

Xoxo-Marissa

oh Hi There.

You Know when you finally get a Taste of Being Happy you'll refuse to have Anybody in your life that will take that away.
Happy has never felt any better than this,
To work for what you'll have is a Truly Amazing Feeling,yes maybe sometimes it sucks to wake up before the sun does but it feels awesome to pay bills an Buy the things we want an need.
I never have to worry about someone saying "You have this or that Because of me"
Everything I have an everything we get, "WE" work for it.
We work in order to stay Independent.

Paying Our Bills, Never Felt so Good.

I've learned so much on My Own..
An the First thing was to learn to be Happy,Disconnecting from Toxic People.
Being Happy for me is to live simple, Stay Huble an Always smile.